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Watery Me – Crying in Recovery

  At the start of the pandemic I cried for two weeks. Not all day, every day, but very regularly. The enormity of the crisis, the fear about the virus, the concerns about lock down – it was a lot to deal with and get my head around. Every time an email came through from […]

Thinking vs Acting – the First Steps to Recovery

Making changes to your alcohol habits is a massive undertaking. It can take months – years even – to get to the point where you actually stop drinking. And that’s okay, because transformation is a long process and it starts from deep within. Often things can be moving well along in the direction of change […]

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Do You Really WANT to Change (and Be Sober)?

You have to want to change in order to change.   I could type a million words about why I love being sober, but if you don’t want to stop drinking it will make no difference.   The tools and techniques of change… I could talk until I run out of puff about all the […]

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I’m an Expert on Cravings…

The wall of words… I feel like I’ve become a bit of an expert on cravings. It’s been hard not to, given I am an addict through-and-through and my brain likes to crave things…   How the Brain Craves… After I quit booze I became very aware of how my brain craved. I spent many, […]

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I Am Wickedly Rebellious (Sober)

  One of the things I love most about being sober is the notion that it’s a wickedly rebellious act. It is! Think about it.  An alcohol soaked world… We live in a world that is literally soaked in booze. Every social occasion, gathering, celebration, achievement, commiseration, high point, low point and Friday night is […]

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The Gift of Desperation in Addiction Recovery

  You feel utterly weird when you first quit drinking. I certainly did. I felt like a sober alien who had been beamed down onto a boozy planet. Like a foreigner in my own life, completely out of context and uncomfortable to say the least.   It’s a rough transition… I’d go to social gatherings […]

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Early Recovery – Strategies to Push Fast Forward

  Early recovery … … is hard as hell. Anyone who says otherwise is lying. It takes guts, commitment, and bravery to remove alcohol from your life and relearn how to live as a sober person.   It does get much easier the more time that goes on not drinking… But there’s no getting away […]

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Dysfunctional Drinking – Am I Being the Fun Police?

  I was scrolling through Instagram a couple of days ago when I saw a photo that a local celebrity had posted. It was of a takeaway cup filled with wine and the caption read: “Sneaking a light beverage into the school prize giving tonight.”   The photo was liked by over 2,000 people and […]

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Boredom and Isolation in Recovery…

Yesterday afternoon at about 4pm I sat at the kitchen bench and stared off into space. I felt bored and restless. I would have rather been somewhere else. Working at an office in town maybe. Or out doing something – anything – stimulating and interesting.   But because I’m a stay-at-home mum who works part-time […]

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What are My Kids Thinking (About my Sobriety)?

  I have so many “how on earth could I be doing this if I was still boozing” moments nowadays, but none more so than when I’m driving my kids around in the evening to their activities. My Three Sons… This happens a lot given I’ve entered that phase of parenting when I seem to […]

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