Finding Recovery – Living in Recovery

There is a difference between finding recovery and living in recovery. When I found recovery, I was at such a rock bottom that I could see no way of continuing to live.   I was well aware that alcohol is a toxin. I knew it was ruining everything and destroying me and all my relationships. […]

Sober Dating? How on Earth Do I Master Relationships?

Life as a single sober person can be difficult.  And sober dating? Fellowship meetings are not social clubs, and I tend to focus on recovery and helping others while there. So it’s difficult to meet someone (although it does happen). I am also acutely aware that many of my fellows share stories of partners who […]

My Drinking Dreams – They’re a Nightmare!

I get so much out of living my life sober. And I am really working towards happiness and fulfillment. I feel like I am on the precipice of something or someone. But I haven’t quite worked out what or who. I suspect this is my spiritual awakening to a new life. And this time it […]

Acceptance? The Stages of my Recovery …

Living a life in recovery is challenging. In order to get sober, I had to give in to my addiction and in order to stay sober I have had to learn about addiction. And in learning about my addiction, I have learned a lot about myself and others. I have also learned it’s all about […]

Reflections on Time and Addiction Recovery

The passing of time is a strange concept in itself, but for me in sobriety, it was the one thing I didn’t consider.  As a child I was obsessed with the passing of time and age. I saw things passing too quickly and yet I was not able to live in the moment and enjoy […]

A Life Beyond My Wildest Dreams in Recovery?

I often hear people in recovery talking about “a life beyond my wildest dreams” and it is a statement I have actually begun to resent.  Since I found sobriety, I am healthier and in general terms a lot happier. But I feel like I am slowly losing so much.   Sober life is tough for […]

Putting the Children First – Do Kids Provide an Incentive to Get Sober?

My children are the most important thing in my life and the best thing I have ever accomplished. They drive me nuts. They push the limits as they get older and form new relationships, but they are the two humans in life I can say, “I love”. Loving my children is the only consistent true […]

I Knew I Was an Alcoholic Long Before I Quit Drinking….

I knew I was an alcoholic long before I finally put the alcohol down.  I knew this because I became emotionally dependent and would use a drink to satisfy everything.  Coming home from work I would slam the bottle of wine on the counter and tell myself that I deserved a drink.  Whether I had […]

Sober New Year’s Parties and Resolutions? Not a Fan…

  I am not a fan of New Year’s Eve parties and nights out. I find all that hugging and Happy New Year chanting a bit much and incredibly uncomfortable. In my active drinking days, I would rarely remember midnight as I almost always blacked-out – either awake or asleep.   What I do love […]