Acknowledging that I cannot control alcohol…
Happiness is believing, despite my pain, that I have the strength inside of me to turn things around.
Happiness is staring down cravings, resisting the pull to drink often enough that the cravings eventually start to fade and die.
Happiness is no 3am wake up full of obsessive guilty thoughts about how much I drank last night.
And happiness is 8 hours of uninterrupted blissful sleep.
Happiness is no sick guts, pounding headache or self-loathing throughout the morning.
Happiness is a clear head as the day unfolds.
Happiness is no fear and doubt and loneliness – the sharp arrows of addiction.
Happiness is a growing feeling of self-worth and a burgeoning self-esteem.
Happiness is appreciating the little things like a new foamy body wash that smells of coconut and honey and the delicate aroma of a mug of herbal tea.
Happiness is realizing that the little things ARE the things that add up to make a satisfying and enriching life.
Happiness is grinding through a tough time and not drinking – then coming out the other side and realizing that those painful emotions were manageable after all.
Happiness is an empty recycling bin and no wine glasses to clean.
Happiness is no matter how crappy I feel, knowing deep down that if nothing else I am brave and amazing for beating my alcohol addiction.
Happiness is fully appreciating the tiny moments of true connection with my family, knowing I wouldn’t be experiencing them if I was numbing myself constantly with wine.
Happiness is watching a TV show late at night knowing I’ll remember every moment of it the next day.
Happiness is listening to a friend talk about their struggles and really hearing them and letting them know I care.
Happiness is a new pillow – seriously. Go buy yourself a new pillow. It is worth its weight in gold.
Happiness is sharing tips and advice with other sober warriors and knowing I am not alone in my struggles.
Happiness is truth and honesty, no shame, no stigma and no hiding or pretending.
Happiness is sobriety. Happiness is recovery.